this date, last year... had a special moment...
it was a great one! =) only that i wished it would have lasted longer...=S
'And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day'
what would you do if you're missing someone?
what would you do if your mind says a different thing from your heart? which would you follow?
maybe it's just me... =}
ytd was really cool... shouted my arse off and had fun!!! =) seriously, it was one of the proudest moments for me as a singaporean, seeing all the people that filled up the entire stadium, despite the drizzle... and it was surely fun shouting cheering cursing and everything! haha
and ive not studied for the weekend... jus finished watching my girl! all 16 episodes of it! a nice drama! ahahah go watch if any of u all are bored! ahahah BAXIA!!! =)
dear lie,
you're not what i had really wanted. but do what you have to, jus make things right... '=/
i went to the toilet 3 times to pee in 15 mins jus now! like wtf... i came back to sit for awhile and the call of nature came so i went back into the toilet then out and into agn... bravo! ahahah
And i passed my BTT!! weee and i was the first person to come out, and theres this gal who's like got the 'attitude' sitting beside me, and i tot i saw her looking shocked when i stood up from my place with a 'PASSED' on my screen! ahahah nah nvm.. so gonna hav my 3rd practical tmr... driving is kinda cool rite now for me, but its a lil tiring to go there everytime, lucky thing its jus a 10min bus ride from my place... hahaha u noe how i passed? i asked my imaginary friend to whisper me the answers! muahahahah
so wed,thurs and fri nite will be spent in sch studying! at the same time being paid... how cool! ahaha but then it was pretty much tiring tat fri cus its freaking 12 long hours! i swear i can die there, i went to sleep woke up, went to sleep woke up, went to slp agn and woke up agn, a few times, and it really really feel like the needles of the clock was crawling like a snail!!!!!! omg! but still, im paid, so cant complain! ahahah
been hooked by this korean drama, 'My Girl'... yes i noe im a lil slowpoke, but at least i have sumthing to kill time off when im bored now... their songs are ncie too... and the drama, personally i tink its nice, cus yea, i like this kinda cheesy storyline... its not wrong for a guy to enjoy this kinda shows rite? ahhaha who cares!!! yea its sweet nice and all but well, its a lil tat... ahahah nah nvm
and yah, im always making my own mess..dengs! im confused!! garhs garhs garhs.. weeets weets weets, nvm things take time so yea... weets weets
anw this song is nice for me now i tink...the lyrics are cool.. SOHC Pres Jeff sent! ahaha =D
Secondhand Serenade - Half Alive
It's four AM, I'm waking up to your perfume
Don't get up, I'll get through on my own
I don't know if I'm home
Or if I lost the way into your room
I'm spiraling into my doom
I'm feeling half alive but I know one day
You and I will be free,
To live and die by our own rules,
Free..
Despite the fact that men are fools.
I'm almost alive, and I need you to try
And save me.
It's okay that we're dying,
But I need to survive tonight, tonight.
Well excuse me while I get killed softly,
Heart slows down and I can hardly tell you I'm okay
At least 'til yesterday,
You know you got me off my highest guard,
Believe me when I say it's hard.
We'll get through this tonight
And I know one day you and I will be free
To live and die by our own rules,
Free..
Despite the fact that men are fools.
I'm almost alive, and I need you to try
And save me.
It's okay that we're dying,
But I need to survive tonight, tonight.
And you touch my hand ever so slightly
(Girl we're not ready for this yet)
And the deadly look she cast upon me
I won't regret, I won't regret
I won't regret. I won't regret...
And I was trying to disappear,
But you got me wrapped around you
I can hardly breathe without you
I was trying to disappear
But I got lost in your eyes now,
You brought me down to size now.
I'm almost alive
And I need you to try and save me.
It's okay that we're dying
But I need to survive tonight, tonight
Tonight...
I'm almost alive, and I need you to try
And save me.
It's okay that we're dying,
But I need to survive tonight, tonight.
I need to survive tonight, tonight
Amazing that sumtimes, u can jus relate your stuffs to songs and shows... =)
i wanna hav an imaginary friend! muahahaha... i was watching tv jus now when my brother was telling my mum abt his friend's little son talking all by himself, and usually in this kind of cases, it will usually be associated wit parnormal stuffs... so yea... ahahah anw, i jus wanna hav imaginary friend, but not the paranormal stuffs, jus an imaginary friend i can talk to! dengs i jus need to talk! ahahah this blog aint tat good. get wat im tryna say? no? nvm its ok, my imaginary friend will! muahahaha
now comes the hard part... a name for it? ahahahha weird
and then my mum showered my cats, and the older one, omg!!! i saw his balls all black! ahahha he's damn old ord! i kept him since 8 years ago, and during tat time, he was already considered and adult cat... and cats live only for so long!!! and i tink i'll die if he even died!!! cus he's like the one that will response when u call out his name, he will come to my bedside every nite to get scratched!! at the neck, not the balls...ahahah but cats like it sumtimes so yea, i do scratch above the balls not the balls! ahahah ok ive got 2 cats, the other one much younger but he kinda sux cus hes scared of every single thing! and he never responds to ur calls unless uve got food! but he wasnt like tat when he first came to my place, but i tink its becus of one incident whereby he almost fell out of the window, while showing off to another cat belonging to sumwhere who lives in the opposite block. i tink that caused him a trauma and tats y he's a scaredy cat now... i dunno... dengs.. but my cats rox! no matter!
aites, so saufi's bday today... happy bday saufi!! ahahah 20 years old ord...super old lah! ahahah and well, aft today, seriously tis few more things were proven rite!!! ahahah no comments! weets weets
anw, tell u wat year 1s of the beautiful SP students' union! not taking cheap shots at u fkers, but jus an advice, be humble...seriously, wat u achieve is something but its not everything, and trust me man, u all still have lots to learn, jus like me, so yea, watch wat u do and say... and we'll live happily ever after! =)
moving on... jeff n me were talking abt our mums nagging to us, especially as the papers are drawing nearer!! ahah and tats is super funny i tinK! and even my GORR GORR keat moo complaining abt her mum being extra naggy too!! ahahah wats wrong wit the mothers of the world now!! ahahaha
anw this world, is running in a system whereby everything is interconnected and interdependent... and tat sux... seriously, i'll be lying if i said tat all the stuffs tat happen ard me will never affect me. the best i can do is jus to minimise the effects upon me, and thankfully sum are not for long nor are they noticeable...
ahaha
the thing is, for me, im quite sure of wat i really want...but then sumtimes im jus so scared of wat others might think, more importantly how others will be affected, especially those directly involved...im scared if tats not wat they want, im scared if they think its not right, i jus care too much abt wat they think and scared of wat the outcome mite be, and well tat contributes to the uncertainties to carry out wat i want... and tis sux cus it really drives me crazy... and to make matters worse, im such a paranoid, that i mite mistook the other person's action as a negative response and then i'll be put off...dengs... i jus wanna live on to be sum1 who dont make others unhappy. sumtimes i jus wish i noe wat they are thinking, so i can make decisions easier... so i wun make them unhappy and at the same time save me all the troubles! ahahaha actually, i dun really care much abt wat the so many others tat dun matter to me feel, but the few special ones... and whenever it involes the few special ones, sum of the decisions i gotta make are jus so hard... and i will be so lost that i go crazy!!!! dengs... and yea, im not good at expressing myself... so tats y even tho it may seems tat i mite not want it, actually i do want it.... weird... dengs... nvm
hmmmmss... wateva it is, nothing horrible will happen to me... weeee =)
ok... im having a slight stomach upset rite now, cus ive not eaten dinner.. but i drank up lots of gassy soft drinks... and i cant eat now even though im hungry cus im bloated wit the soft drinks... wth... i seriously shud learn to eat wat and wat not.
so 2 more weeks to the examinations, in which i will have 5 papers over a period of 2 weeks! dengs... and tmr i ma start to study overnight at sch, but at the same time, im gg to get paid!!! tats wonderful! ahahah oh yah, having a 2d1n camp in between the papers too! wahawhwah wtf! i need to relax too u noe! ahahah
okok, i tink the year 2 excos rocks now! altho this mite contradict sum of my other comments, but well, of cus there's moments that we share which is simply cool! and yah i do think we rox! ahahah so discard all the bad remarks i mite hav said! ahahah and yea yea yea, i cant wait for FO camp!!! it wud be fun, and hopefully my itp company wud be nice enuf to let me off for this camp! ahahah i surely dun wanna miss it! ahahaahh and yea, theres a mix of feelings for me that the 47th union is gonna end real soon so yea, wateva happens in the future wud seriously be good for me... dengs who doesnt... hahaha i jus hope not much shit will fall upon me no matter wat the future holds for me! pls god, this is one of my prayers! =) dengs
anw... i dunno y but i believe in happy endings, like those in the movies... i like fairytales, and yes i dream alot... =) plus daydreaming... dengs. and yea i do wish for happy endings to happen to me... =) it will happen i believe.. it will! ahaha
be my fairytale then... =)
im tired rite now!!! ahahah ive got to rush a freaking assignment ytd nite... and its a stupid module, pme...mechanics shiet! and i sux at it! woohoo! but then i did complete it! so bravo to me!!!
anw i missed today's the arena... who noes wats the topic? and who won it? i wanna noe! ahahah i tink the show's quite cool, ive been fascinated by debates since young, and i guess tat explains why i talk too much! ahahaha
and speaking of talking... had a pretty nice talking session with the excos! and yea we had fun! muahahahah i guess tats one of the few fun memories i'll bring alg wit me from this council! ahahah and tats not all!!! theres so many funny stuffs gg on rite now, and yah most of em inside jokes, so i tink it will only be the few of us laughing! wahawhawhawh now tats weird! but who cares, laughing rox! ahahahah
oh yeah, i was coming home today and i saw this gal wit this angmoh! ahahah okok, i sound jealous but seriously i feel sad when i see asians wit angmohs! not racist! never will i be racist...but its like clash of culture, and erms, i m quite conservative, and i dun believe i'll trade my culture and beliefs with the westerners, cuz basically... in my eyes, most of theirs are really undesirable? ahahah tats my opinion! so maybe the arena shud debate abt this! ahahah ironic cus i keep talking abt california lifestyle being fun and all! ahahah
and besides tat, gonna have sum lil income coming this month! so yea... i'll hav a lil extra money... and council's ending!... sch's ending! exam starting! attachment starting! FO preps starting! years 1s gonna die! muahahah ok nah jus kidding!
dengs